What I have been learning lately is regarding complaining, grumbling, whining, judging, crybaby, spoiled; well, grumbling and complaining, I added the rest.
God doesn't like it. I read as soon as God's children left to go to the promised land, as soon as they hit the road they started belly-aching and complaining in reality about God. The Almighty did not like it, and thus let them wander around in a circle for 40, thats forty years, when the journey could have taken 11, that's eleven, a little over a week and a half, to get there.
When I was shown that, and convicted in my heart that the description fit me. Then I went to God and repented and said I was sorry. I asked him to give me a blessing of not complaining anymore, I knew I could not do it myself. God was faithful to His word, and I stopped complaining. It was effortless. I understood that He was angry with that behavior, and He gave me a supernatural, if you want to call it that, miracle, yes, gift and changed it for me. That's what a great and mighty Father I have. I am a son of God. I will drop that name until my body is dead, my Father, I want to call Him Dad but never have because I have always had a God-fearing respect for Him, but rest assured dad is no doubt a man-made name so it wouldn't apply anyways, but it could be thought of in the same vein no less.
Anyways I have found that when you are in obedience to Him in all areas of your life, not perfect but obediently trying, He actually is there and influencing your life with his majestic power. You see it right before you, you ask and He answers right to your face, or in your face, but directly. It takes getting to a place of trust to recognise God working. He doesn't just sit up in Heaven observing his humans, He is actively involved in all goings on in the Earth. He is an active Highest Being.
I haven't ever wanted to share my experience with God and Jesus, and the miracles He has wrought, and I haven's started doing that. But for some reason I wanted to boast of God and the things He is teaching me. I am not trying to sermonize. I am a simple man, but have lived a very full life, actually about 5 lives in one or so, in and out of the same 4 same (gay) closet, even posing for over 10 years as a mate to a black woman and helped raise her two grandkids, the boy from one to fifteen, DJ. We were buds for life. I was like a giant plaything for him, like the movie The Toy. I always say I never progressed past age 17, I am stuck in the 70's then the disco daze, but so what! My actual name means small child. You cannot enter the Kingdom of God unless you become as a small child.
Maybe I digress, which I guess I did. I just love to talk about the kids I had, a built-in family.
The last lesson was my tongue. We have to answer for every word we speak. We have to give account at judgement. The Bible tells God's own that we are supposed to bridle our tounge, like a horse I imagine. When I heard that I rushed to bible study to find out how. About the only thing you can do is train yourself to just say nothing. Be silent. I have seen very favorable results from that. People like me more now. A group I lunch with I notice any one will sit with my table to lunch, because they know that they can eat in peace, I won't say a thing. I don't want to interrupt people when they eat. Before I thought I had to be talking, if I didn't spout off the mouth now and then, no one would know who I was. WRONG! People know you by watching you, observing. Now I love to help older people off the bus and aid others when I can. People see me doing that. I do it because it pleases my Father and my Lord Jesus, not for favor from people. At lunch and dinner I say my prayers before eating. I do it in public, in front of anyone, and I usually as for blessings for all sitting at my table, like King David has, I think.
So my blog may not be viewed by anyone. To me now it is to do a diary, log, but one which speaks nothing but God's grace and love and all His good that He does. As Paul of Bible said he didn't want to have anything on his lips except Jesus. And if we can't talk about Jesus, I hope not from embarassment because there's a warning of God for that, then we ought say nothing. I would rather enter Heaven with a clean slate. Are you freaked that a camera is always recording you if you live in a city, then are you going to go insane when you learn that Jesus is recording every little word of your mouth, even whispered. And He said you will have to answer for EVERY little word, or word actually, out of yourn mouth.
A lesson also was being around people who take God's name in vain. Valley girl type use of God's name, and on teen shows like icarly are dispicable. The casual use of God's name is bad. One of the commandments is to not do it, one of the TOP TEN LIST from God, not david letter.
Every wonder if the preachers that laud prosperity from God while on this planet a short time are right or false decievers in sheep's clothing. Well they are full of cow shit. I was raised in Montana so that's an appropriate use of what some would think a swear word - it's not in my context. Jesus drifted around for 10 years while He was being prepared by God for his ministry. Then His minstry lasted a short 3 years and He was dead, buried, risen in 3 days. And I have complained when a problem isn't resolved immediately by God, much less a whole year or longer. He has beared with me for a long time, but now I am paying the Piper. I am in some serious spritual training with tests and trials, tribulations unending. But I today, rejoice, I feel I am blessed because I am being trained by the Greatest, plus the bible and Jesus continually coaxed and commanded us not to worry. Worrying is a lack a faith, big time. So the bottom line I have today is don't worry about a thing, don't do any good works for God unless His Spirit calls you to, or they will be burned up on Judgement Day, their useless. Work out your own salvation with fear and trembing like God says. Do what he tells you even if Spock would judge that illogical, and put God to the test. That's against what the bible says, do not test God. But putting His Word to the test or having faith in his word then stepping out and doing what it says, is not acutally putting God to the test? It is. I can't explain it but I know that He always passes the test.
Jesus' Peace be with you, Tad Toring tadtorings@gmail.com
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